I don't mind it so much. Before I met my husband I lived alone for 4 years. I am also an only child so, "by myself" is what I do. I guess you could say that my personality and upbringing has prepared me for the military life. I like having the bed to myself (myself meaning me, the dog, and both cats), I enjoy watching what I want on tv, I like no one looking at me funny if I leave my dish on the table after I finish eating, and I like having the thermostat set on 68, not 70.
Then, as I sit in my happy bubble, I turn to tell him about a story I read on the internet or ask about a recipe that I found on pinterest and he isn't there. I put my shoes on to take the dog out into the cold and realize that he always does it so I don't have to go outside at night (I hate it!). The dishes also start to pile up because he isn't giving me the "look" and I don't have anyone to complain to about whatever I need to complain about.
I miss him terribly but, I know that it is his job and I know that I am perfectly capable of being the strong one while he is gone. I have to relish in the things that make me happy in order to avoid the things that make me sad.
This week NC has seen A TON of snow. (A TON= 4 inches) and we are just not used to that. I didn't get to work (I'm a teacher) and so all I had to do with my time is be in the house and wish he was here because I know that he would have made me leave, even if it was to go to the store. I refuse to drive on any ice so, therefore, I was homebound. Next week, it is supposed to snow again and of course he will still be gone. It is the lifestyle that you learn to have a love/hate relationship. I love to sleep in my bed with all my space but I hate that he isn't here to play in the snow or eat my pineapple crock pot chicken.
I will share some more while he is gone, including hoping to take my Clomid on the right days so we are ready to go the day that he gets back!
Here are some pretty snow pictures :)
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