Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Orange is the New Black- Book Review


When I first picked this book up, I did it because the show was so popular. Everyone kept saying how great the show was. Well, I figured if the show was that good, then the book must be better. I can't tell you about the show because I haven't watched it yet but, I can tell you that the book is a real eye opener. 

When the book first starts she briefly discusses the history that led her to prison. I felt like she kind of downplayed her part in the drug and money exchange. She made herself seem a little more innocent than what I think that she probably was. Of course, she is writing the book and might have been looking for some sympathy factor with the fact that she did time for a 10 year old sentence. It kind of set the tone that she didn't belong with your typical "prison type" woman. 

When she finally gets to the woman's correctional institute in Danbury, CT she finds herself surrounded with kind souls, this is where things got to be interesting for me. I didn't know what exactly to expect when I picked the book up but, I thought I would find more fighting and heinous people. I did not find that at all. She writes about the kindness that is bestowed on her since she obviously was a newbie who didn't really know what to do. I expected people to make fun of her and maybe even try to fight her; this was not the case. 

Piper Kerman shows the American public the many faces of people who are in prison. While she was in a minimum security prison and therefore divided from those who might have been incarcerated for more violent crimes, she shows that each person is in there for simply making a mistake. I loved how she showed the good side of even the people that she didn't care for. How they somehow helped her when she least expected it or nicely asked her for help and admitted their ignorance of a subject. She shows how prison tears apart mothers from their children and husbands from their wives. Everyone has someone that loves them and when they are in prison they are torn apart for an extended period of time. 

I loved how expressed that most of her time was made easier due to the overwhelming support of people around her and that most in the prison system do not have a support system, which is part of the reason they landed there in the first place. Her fiance was a wonderful support as well as friends who were constantly sending things. I know there are programs for sending books to prisoners and this made me want to think about signing up for that program to send some books! 

One thing that I took from the book is how our prison system needs to be re-examined. We pay almost 30,000 a year for one female prisoner in the system (Source: Orange is the New Black by Piper Kerman).  I think that there might be better ways to spend our tax dollars for criminals with smaller crimes. Maybe instead of a year 6 months would be enough to think about what you had done, or instead of a minimum six month sentence, 1 month would be okay. From what she described, I think one month of those living conditions would be enough for those who learned their lesson. For repeat offenders, obviously more time would need to be sought after. 

The book teaches patience, kindness, friendship, and the "things can always be worse" lesson. It is a very eye opening account of the American prison system. I enjoyed it and I look forward to seeing what the show has to offer! 

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Healthy eating and all that jazz

I'm not the worst eater... but I'm not the best either. I eat fast food, I love cheesecake, and sweet tea is my drink of choice. I also eat a ton of pineapple, bananas, and drink water throughout the day. I admit that I need to eat better but I'm not going to fool myself into thinking that I can go without certain things. I feel like healthy eating is a lifestyle change and that cutting out things that I love is just going to make it harder and make me give up. So, I have pinterested (is that a word?) and found something that I can eat. I did not count the calories and I didn't follow a diet plan, I just picked out some healthy stuff that I like and I'm going with it. I do like the idea of eating more organically so, I have tried to add as many fresh fruits and vegetables as I can. 

Here is my meal plan through Thursday. Friday is my cheat day since we order out at work for lunch and my husband normally grills something lovely on the grill. Saturday I will make a new plan and go shopping. 

Monday

Breakfast: Cereal (With 1% milk) **Side note: this is because I have not gone to the store yet and this is what I have in the house

Lunch: 1 Can of Pineapple tidbits
              1/2 cup blueberries
               1/2 Peanut Butter and Banana Sandwich

Dinner: Bagel Pizza (mozzarella cheese, pepperoni, and tomato baked on a bagel)

Snack: Apple
             Almonds


Tuesday

Breakfast: 1/2 Bagel with peanut butter, blueberries, and sliced almonds on top
                    Cut up Strawberries

Lunch: Cucumber Ranch Turkey Wrap
              Peach (sliced)
              Grapes
              1/4 cup Dark Chocolate Chips

Dinner: Italian Pasta (Rotini noodles, tomato, spinach, Italian dressing)

Snack: Banana


Wednesday

Breakfast: 1/2 Bagel with peanut butter and bananas
                    Cut up strawberries

Lunch: Spinach Salad with Tuna (Spinach, tomato, cucumber, Italian Dressing)
              Grapes
               1/4 Cup Dark Chocolate Chips

Dinner: Stuffed Chicken Breast (Stuffed with leftover spinach, mushrooms, mozzarella Cheese) 


Thursday

Breakfast: Cereal with 1% milk

Lunch: Apple Granola Wrap (peanut butter, cut up apple, granola)
             Strawberries
             Blueberries
             1/4 cup Dark Chocolate Chips

Dinner: Baked Potato with leftover Chicken


Friday: Cheat day!

Breakfast: Cereal/Milk

Lunch: BLT with macaroni salad from Deli and Banana Pudding

Dinner: ???? Maybe Steak with mac and cheese


Friday night I will plan the next week and go to the store. Also, I will be drinking water with all of these meals. I also drink fertility tea at night. 

Shopping List: 

Crunchy Peanut Butter (because that's what I like!)
Bagels
Shredded Mozzarella Cheese
Sliced Almonds
Pepperoni
Bananas
Spinach
Tuna
Cherry Tomatoes
Cucumbers
Grapes
Mushrooms
Chicken Breasts
Blueberries
Strawberries
Ranch packet
Tortilla Wraps
Peaches
Dark Chocolate Chips
Rotini Pasta
Italian Dressing
Bananas
Apples
Baking Potato
Sour Cream

I will try to take pictures of these so I can post them on instagram! 

I hope some of you will try this with me. When I start my workout plan I will add that in as well! 


Sunday, April 6, 2014

44 days and counting

I am currently on day 44 of my cycle. Yes, you read that right, day 44. I took my 10 days of provera and got nothing. My OBGYN says that she thinks that we tried to control it too much and to give it two weeks, that was a week and a half ago. If I don't have it by Thursday then I am to call her and I have no idea what she will say. 

I think things would have gone a little more smoothly for us had it not been for the military. The reason I couldn't just take our second round of clomid after AF last time was because my husband was leaving for 2 weeks and he would be gone days 10-20 of my cycle, obviously missing ovulation time. My OBGYN tried to use the provera to time AF for when he would be home but, that has obviously been a total fail. He is gone again right not but will be home again next week and will stay until June so, hopefully we can have a try at a second clomid round. 

Although it feels like forever, I have to keep reminding myself that we have really only had one shot at it although we have been trying to conceive for 9 months now. Due to the PCOS I think that our only real chance is the months that I take the clomid. After I realized how late I was in my cycle I have been taking tests every few days just to make sure that we haven't conceived naturally (ha!). That has obviously led to several BFN and more heartbreak, although I knew that they wouldn't be positive I think somewhere deep down inside I hoped that they would be. 

I have to say that this journey has been eye opening. I know that to truly understand this journey, you have to be going through it. There is no hope for anyone else to understand. It has put a wall between me and one of my best friends. She got pregnant on the first try when they weren't even really sure about trying. I started avoiding her, I blocked her from my newsfeed on facebook, and just tried not to say anything because anytime she spoke to me, it would be about SOMETHING baby or related to kids. I thought the best thing would be to avoid her. She finally asked if I was mad at her and I explained to her that I don't mind talking to her and I understand that babies are going to come up but, we have to talk about something else. So then she told me I should be happier, that I should just be patient our time will come, and then proceeded to ask me about my husbands children from a previous relationship. I couldn't even answer her. It is obvious the understanding isn't there and that I should just avoid that at all costs in order to save myself emotions. People can not understand how heartbreaking this journey is. I think what makes it the most heartbreaking is that you simply can not control it. It is a journey that for the most part is out of your hands making it very frustrating. 

I hope that a light starts shining for us soon. My emotions are quite exhausted!